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Our Christmas trees are up and decorated already. Yes, I said TREES, plural. But, I’ll get to that in a minute . . .
Years ago, it would have been unheard of to put our Christmas tree up before Thanksgiving. Brian was always very adamant that we not put it up until at least the Saturday AFTER Thanksgiving. And when I say “adamant,” I mean it in the severest sense of the word – like, to the point of being annoyingly stubborn about it.
That all changed, though, the year that my best friend Sue passed away. It was really, really hard for me to even put up a tree at all that year. I had no interest in it. I couldn’t bear to use my old-fashioned rag ball ornaments that Sue and I had spent hours creating together, along with all the rusty tin ornaments that I had been collecting to go with them. It just hurt too much.
So, that year, well into December, we went shopping for all new ornaments. I bought a bunch of fun, bright-colored ornaments to decorate our tree with. Then, I attempted to move said tree from one area of the room to another, only to end up breaking the stand. Having to anchor our tree to the wall with jute rope really didn’t help my depression.
The next year, we went in search of a new Christmas tree and I finally settled on one that I loved at Kmart, from the Jaclyn Smith line (I love her!) I’ve been using that tree, decorating it with the bright, shiny, happy ornaments for the past 4 years. In fact, in 2013, when we were planning a trip to Disney in December, I actually set it up in the middle of November, just so we could have time to enjoy it.
Healing does come!
I’ll be honest and say that I never thought I’d be ready to dig out my old Christmas ornaments. But, a few weeks ago, while walking to the post office, I just so happened to look into the yard of a house that’s been sitting empty for the past 18 months and something caught my eye . . .
A simple patch of ornamental grass.
Probably sounds silly to you. But, to me, it was a bit of an epiphany moment.
Because, you see, my “old” Christmas tree . . . once it was all up and decorated, I would go out and gather ornamental grass to stick in among the ornaments. But, the patch I used to glean from had been long since cut down.
And all of a sudden, it was like God was saying, “It’s ok. You can dig out those ornaments again. YOU CAN DO THIS!”
I never thought we’d have two trees!
But, with thoughts of old ornaments floating through my head, Ashley and I were walking through Walmart last week and I saw them . . . the white Christmas trees. You know the ones I mean. . . the ones that were considered tacky a few years ago, but now there’s something almost magical about them!
I called Brian, thinking that he’d think I was insane. But, the guy who is normally Scrooge Strawser said, “Go ahead!”
So we bought one. Because, it seemed a shame to let all those new ornaments go to waste.
And now we have two Christmas trees!
And it’s OK!
I don’t know that we’ll do this every year. It meant rearranging things in our house to make room for them. But, they’re pretty and they make me happy this year.
And, as I was digging through those old rag ornaments that Sue and I worked so hard on, I felt OK about it. I didn’t feel like I was betraying her. I didn’t feel like it was too hard to use them. I just felt peace.